New Year Comparisons:

Money has always been a wonder to me. Earning a grand sum every month has changed the most fundamental beliefs of my life, that I have so far held close my heart. One such belief was that New Year's Eve is for the wicked. Little did i know that I was told such horrifying stories to keep me from demanding outings every new years eve. Though it was my birthday, I remember new years and new years of just Sony Max or Zee TV. As usual exhausted from the birthday parties I generally have in my house every 31st of December, I forced my eyes open so I could see 00:00am of the new year. This was the trend for 19 years of my life.
Then the trend changed. In the past three years I knew what it was to be outdoors on 31st Dec. First time outside was a disaster. 31.12.2007: It was 11:45pm and I heard my phone ring. Tone: Mangalyam (from Alaipayuthe). Next thing I knew, I jumped out of my house from the 1st floor leaving all the grills open. I thought it was a momentary thing...but it lasted 3 hrs! Thanks to the punctured tyres 10 kms from home. I still laugh at my dumb attempt to see the outside world on new years eve!
On 2008 Dec 31st, the trend changed even more. I had permission to go with my friends family and I went with my guy!!!! Well I know I sound bad but I was too in love. Couldn't help it one bit.Just went out with a group of friends for a buffet Tandoor dinner. I was nearly out of college and according to my folks I had gained enough of their trust already. Only I knew what a mistake I was!!! 3 hrs into the new year I finally felt my body rest on somebody elses bed!!!
This new year, Dec 31st 2009, all the hide and seek games were over and I had earned enough trust( and money!) to go out with my guy , with no amount of shame left in my body. Ate chinese like a good girl and came back home around 2am! I did notice one thing over the past three years, the fact that I abused my suppression and never my freedom. Then reality hit me, I was finally growing up. Beautiful, smart and now with some traces of maturity too!